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Today’s game went very well. The only unhealthy snack I ended up having was a half of a package of reese’s pieces. Boy Toy ate the rest. The other snacks I had at the game were: a handful of grapes, some baby carrots and celery, and ranch dip. So, I really had a great snack day. Supper sucked though. We went to Olive Garden, but I only ate half of my food. I boxed the rest up and brought it home. I haven’t looked up the calories for it yet, but I’m assuming it’s bad.

Onto other news, I just ended the worst period of my life. It lasted 24 days. Yes, I went to a doctor(have been previously for one that lasted 21 days). Basically, the only thing he would’ve given me to stop it would be birth control, and I’m allergic to that. He told me to lose weight, and that might help the problem. So, I’m already working on that!

Is anyone else excited about the Breaking Barriers Challenge? I’m looking at it as a new start. A push on this weightloss journey. I hope everyone had a great day, and I hope tomorrow is even brighter!

Why do I always fail on the weekend?

This is going to make me sound incredibly nerdy. My fiance is into playing table-top roleplaying games(i.e. Dungeons and Dragons, Star Wars, Call of Cthulu). Since I’ve moved in with him, I play too. It’s a way for us to hang out with our friends, and we get to play a game. What could be better? The problem is…snacks. I guess it’s a major part of the “gaming culture”(at least that’s what he tells me), and since I’m the only one trying to lose weight, the snacks offered are horrible. And, I can’t help myself. I get to face chips, cookies, candy, soda, and a fast-food run. Even if I pack my own snacks, I still snag the salty, sweet, and fatty goodness that got me here in the first place. It’s incredibly disheartening to realize that even if I’m good all the rest of the week, Saturday’s kick my butt. I will gain two pounds from my Saturday binge, and it just keeps snowballing.

So, my question is: does anyone know of any snacks I can take that will help me get past this hump? Or, has anyone else here had this dilemma? It might not be a gaming session, it might be a pot-luck at work, poker night, or anything like that.  I’ve been taking cut up celery and baby carrots. But, I just can’t seem to help myself. I resorted to sitting myself as far away from the food as possible this time, and I still ended up eating a bag of chips, a candy bar, and taco bell. I’m the kind of person that needs to have my bad food times planned, or I just go out of control.

Well, it is 10:30 at night. I’ve restarted my weightloss goals. I’ve been doing great for a week, but I think blogging will help me do better. I have been lurking and reading the blogs. So, I think I will be better prepared to actually write one.

Okay, so my fiance is a h.s. history teacher. As a treat for him and some of his fellow teachers, as it is their first week back, I am baking cookies. Normally, he ropes me into baking cookies for all of his students, which gets bad. I was actually enjoying this until I sat down to calculate how many calories are in my cookies. There are 83 calories are in each cookie…83…in one…I can never stop at one cookie. If I keep any of them, I will end up eating every single one of them. So, they are all going tomorrow. I told my fiance if he wants to keep some, he better find a place in his classroom for ‘em. As for me, they are outta here. So, I feel proud of that.

On a side note, my apartment now smells like butterscotch cookies. So, that’s a definite plus.

On another note, he and I finally sat down and really talked about a wedding date. So, I’m excited about that. We would both keep postponing it. So, this is wonderful. It gives me an actual date I want to reach my weight goal by. So, Dec. 7, 2011 here I come. I’m hopefully happy and wiser by then. Not to mention thinner.

Monday- 19 April 2010

Today was bad food and exercise wise. My heel still hasn’t completely recovered, but I can wear a tennis shoe for short periods of time. I hope it gets better soon. I bought some new bandages that make it a little easier to wear a shoe, but it doesn’t work for long periods of time.

I got to hang out with one of my best, good friends(an expression I picked up from my mom). She and I went and ate mexican food…not good for the new eating plan. The really good news is that I lost 5 lbs this time! Yay! Yay! Yay! Why do people keep buying me pop? You don’t offer an alcoholic a bottle of vodka. I keep giving in. It looks like I can go about a week before I fall off the wagon in spectacular fashion. Oh well, all I can do is get up tomorrow and try again. I hope everyone else has a great rest of the week.

Tuesday- 20 April 2010 

Not much has happened with the diet. I’m so stressing out about graduation. It’s in a small auditorium, and I only have a few tickets to give to family/friends. And, they are fighting for ‘em. I’m to the point I just want to bury my face in a bucket of ice cream. Grrr…not a pleasant thought.

 Wednesday- 21 April 2010

I got two extra tickets! Yay! This means that they can go the graduation, and I’m not put up on the chopping block. Freaking A. I’m so sick of this crap.

Thusday- 22 April 2010

The fiance is now causing drama. I’m moving out to Az in July, and he is trying to find an apartment that will accept pets. I’m just not equipped to deal with this right now. I told him to update me on any new drama on Saturday. Graduation is tomorrow, and I’ve been reduced to tears too many times this week. I wish someone had explained to me that graduation is more stressful than the entire process of getting the darned degree in the first place. I hope tomorrow is better.

Friday 23 April 2010

This morning has been remarkably stressless. I’m so happy right now. I’m done, and graduation is in a few short hours. I can’t wait. I’ve gotten texts and IMs from everyone. I passed out tickets yesterday. Whoever got ‘em, good. Whoever didn’t can just get over it. I couldn’t be completely unbiased. I hope they understand that I love them all, but I just don’t have the space. I also got my ring in today! Double Yay! I was wondering when the thing would get in. We ordered it over 6 weeks ago. I’m optimistic. Wish me luck! Good Luck to all Buddyslimmers.

Sunday- 11 April 2010

Bunny Watch 2010

Okay, first things first. Today was not bad. I didn’t feel like I was hungry all the time like last week. I’ve upped my water intake, and I think that’s helping. I’m also trying to get in more protein, and I think that might be contributing as well. I took my measurements too. So, I will know what is going on with my body even if I don’t lose pounds. I refuse to get discouraged.

Now, for the fun stuff. I have a dog. She’s my Cornie dog. She’s a cross between a Corgi and a Weenie Dog. She has the herding instincts of a Corgi, and the burrowing habits of a Weenie. All in all, she’s a little sweetheart who has more energy than she knows what to do with.

Enter the second part of the equation: My dad bought a rabbit during Easter weekend.  He works alternating weeks. So, he prepared a pen for the bunny and headed off to work. It was up to the rest of us to care for it for the week. The next morning, the bunny escaped. I thought, ‘Oh well’. My little designer dog sniffed around the pen and ran off into the woods around the house. I thought, ‘Whatever, it’s not like she can catch it.’ I went back into the house. A few minutes later I heard a horrible scream. I ran outside. My dog had the bunny penned up against the pen. What the Heck! So, I rescue the bunny. It’s fine. Not a scratch on it. My dog went and brought the rabbit back! She was so proud of herself. I was proud that she didn’t hurt the poor thing.

Well, this all happened this past Monday. Today, the bunny escaped again. I went to check on it, and I couldn’t see it. So, I climbed in the pen. I go to check the dog house we have in the pen for the bunny. I figured she was in there. Sure enough, she was. She sped out of the doghouse and made her way out through a little hole that I hadn’t noticed before. I thought, ‘There’s no way I’m going to be able to catch this thing.’ So, I went in the house and told Sam, my dog, that her bunny had escaped. She went outside and ran right to where the bunny was hiding. I stayed outside to see what she would do.

Sam then proceeded to herd the bunny back to its pen. The bunny scrambled back into its pen, and is now happy as can be. I wired the little gaping part back together. Sam has convinced herself that this bunny is her responsibility. She has not moved since the rabbit went back into its pen. She is out there watching it. I have entitled the incident Bunnywatch 2010. I will probably be posting on this topic again in the future. It’s too funny. My dog now has a cat and a rabbit. What will she come up with next.

Monday- 12 April 2010

Food is good today. I’ve eaten entirely too much, but I haven’t gone over the 1800 calorie limit I’ve placed on myself. I’m trying to stay somewhere between 1500-1800 calories a day. I have a lot of weight to lose, and I think it is working. First weigh in was today, and I’ve lost 4lbs! Yay! Go Me! That’s with minimal exercise. I hope to get more in this week. However, my senior project is due Friday. I’m trying to get it done and ready to go for Wednesday. Hopefully, I’ll succeed. If not, I’m sure I’ll have something to say about tomorrow.

Tuesday- 13 April 2010

Alright, today sucks. I just wanted to start out saying that. I woke up late. That really sucks because I planned on devoting most of my day to getting my paper done so I could revise it Wednesday. Now, it’s looking like I might not be able to get to sleep tonight because of it. This drama is all my fault, but it still sucks. Argh, and to top that off, I’m right at my 1800 calorie limit already…How come I do better when I wake up earlier? It’s illogical. Time enough to whine after I get this project done. Will update on it tomorrow morning, approximately ten minutes before I crash.

Alright, late night update. I’m having an allergic reaction to something. I haven’t eaten anything different. In fact, the only thing different I’ve done today is use my mom’s bodywash. This is extremely frustrating! I just got over a major breakout to my b.c. So, I guess now I’m going to have to go back through the process of eliminating everything I did again. And, I can’t take anything for it! Grr…..*mumbles* I might end up having to strangle something. This is really freaking upsetting. I’m still not done, and I can’t do anything to make this better right now. Frack!

Wednesday- 14 April 2010

Yay! Go Me! *Does Happy Dance!* I did it! Paper is done, and Benadryl is now coursing its way through my system. Here I go off into sweet oblivion. I will update later this afternoon.

Not much to say about today other than I crashed. I didn’t wake back up until about 4 this afternoon. That was just long enough to eat and go back into oblivion.

Thursday- 15 April 2010

Happy Tax Day! Hopefully everyone got theirs done or had extensions filed today. I have edited my paper today. I restructured quite a few items, and then I realized I made a stupid MLA mistake. I put the periods at the end of my quotes instead of at the end of the citation. I had to go through and fix all of that. End count of sources cited: 21. 21 sources for a 20 page paper. I think I outdid myself this time. Food was alright today. Not fantastic, but better than it could have been. As long as I stick to the menu, I think I’ll succeed.

Friday- 16 April 2010

I had sent a preliminary draft of my paper to my professor. I was afraid that if I didn’t, I would completely lose my paper. I tend to back-up, back-up again, and then I email it to myself. That way I will always at least have one version completed. I just thought that might be some helpful advice to those going to school right now. I’ve lost flash-drives, had computer crashes, and basically experienced everything that could get me to miss the deadline.Luckily, I tend to start early. So, I make sure that I have a version floating around in case I slip and fall and break my flash-drive.

I turned in the final draft. The professor told me that as long as I had fixed the minor problems with it, she expected me to get an A on it. Yay! Go Me!  Hopefully I got ‘em all. I’m really excited.

Diet wise- today was good. Not great. I ended up missing breakfast. So, I bought a cheeseburger and fries for lunch. I fell off the wagon as far as pop goes. I had a diet coke with the burger. Why is that the things that we know aren’t good for us, taste so good? The good news about the bad food. I couldn’t eat all of my fries. That made me feel good. Maybe my stomach is shrinking.

My nephew came over today. I took him to see Avatar at the local cheap theater. We had a great time. The funniest part of the whole outing was when it was dead silent. There was no talking in the movie or in the theater. He farted. It was really loud and very high-pitched. This set him off to giggling. I couldn’t help but laugh too. Then, the little boy in the aisle in front of us farted too. His parents started laughtng too. It was like a chain-reaction. Gas to the theater: $10. Ticket costs: $8. Snacks and Waters: $12. Nephew setting off a domino-effect of giggles at the most dramatic point in the film: Priceless!

Saturday 17 April 2010

Nephew stayed over today. Today I was off-menu. It was scheduled. We ate subs for lunch(not bad) and pizza for supper(pretty bad). He got sick though, not from the food. I was upset because I couldn’t get a hold of his dad. So, we ended up curling up on couch and watching Old Dogs. I kept an eye on him while he slept, and I tried to get his dad on the phone. He just didn’t feel well at all. He wanted to go home. I even drove him to his house, and his dad wasn’t there. So, he came back home with me.

Don’t get me wrong. His dad has done an amazing job. My half-sis was out of the picture when my nephew turned 1. His dad has let us keep a relationship with my nephew, and I really appreciate it.  My nephew is really polite and well-behaved. He probably turned out much better than if my sister had been involved.

Another note, Sam, my dog, has now decided she likes my nephew more than me. She hasn’t left his side all day. Maybe she just realizes how bad he feels.

Sunday- 18 April 2010

My nephew feels great today. He has sworn off of rootbeer. It seems that he was experiencing really bad gas.

Today I am back on-menu. Except, I haven’t made up the menu yet. I ran out of time last week. I generally do it on Friday. I just was otherwise occupied. Oh well. I’m going to eat a t.v. dinner for lunch, and I’ll finish the menu this afternoon.

I will tack on this evening’s update to next weeks Blog. Good luck fellow Buddyslimmers!

 Alright, I’ve decided a blog might help me, but I think that posting it daily might be a bad thing for me. I tend to obsess about things, and then, I feel bad when I can’t keep up with the schedule I set for myself. I think that seeing if I can keep this up on a weekly basis might help. If I can do it well, I may update it daily in the future. Until I can figure out what works for me best, I’m going to keep it in this format.

Sunday was day 1, and I think I did really well for it being Easter. I managed to stick to it very well. I didn’t get munchy until last night. So, I took some aleve and went to bed early. I haven’t started working out yet. I managed to rake the skin off of one of my heels. Putting on socks at this point is out of the question. So, I’m concentrating on the eating portion. So far, I’ve been a day without junk food, pop, and chocolate. One day down, many, many more to go.

Day 2: Not great. Getting a little better though. I woke up really hungry. So, I ate a banana while I mixed my smoothie. I drank my smoothie while waiting on my oats to finish cooking. I actually started cooking lunch at 11 because I was still hungry. Then, I ate 2 yogurt cups, an orange, and a half of an apple with reduced sugar caramel before I cooked supper. That was at 5. For dessert, I had frozen a yogurt cup and ate it. It was surprisingly good. As for all the yogurt, my sister recently had her tonsils removed, so I’m trying to get rid of it before it goes bad. Luckily we had it in the house, or I might’ve gone foraging elsewhere.

Day 3- Tuesday

Not much to say about today other than I felt like I was starving. It made me realize that I needed more protein. I tried to put on tennis shoes, but I ended up crying out in pain. I can’t even go swimming because of my stupid heel. I wish it would heal already.

Day 4-Wednesday

Today was better. I wasn’t as hungry. I got on the scale, but it didn’t show any difference. Does anyone else have issues with their scale? I’m thinking I may start using the one at the gym once a week to get a good feel for what’s going on. My little sister has lost 7lbs, but it just goes to show how much weight you can put on when you survive off of ice cream.

Day 5- Thursday

Wasn’t nearly as hungry today. I scheduled Saturday as my ‘off’ day. Not off of my new lifestyle change, but off of the menu plan I came up with. My mom decided that we needed to go eat at Buffalo Wild Wings a.k.a. her favorite place in the world before we went to Sam’s to shop for meat. Well, that and my sis was off of work today. So, I switched today’s meals for Saturday, and we ate out. It was great, and we all ate too much. But, we all also did better than we would have a week ago. So, I’m hoping that this plan is actually helping us some. I made chicken fajitas for supper, and I think they turned out great. I didn’t log my calories from that meal, but because I made them at home, I’m not as nervous about what’s in them as I would have been at a restaurant. I think that shows signs of improvement.

Day 6- Friday

Today is going well, so far. Still unable to put on tennis shoes. I’ve tried bandaging my heel and putting on extra socks before the shoes, but the second the pressure and support from the shoe applies to it, I want to bawl like a baby.  I’ve been running around in Crocs and flip-flops for over a week. I really hope this clears up by next week. If it doesn’t stop by then, I may resort to walking my road in Crocs.

The only reason that I haven’t done so yet is that my road is fixing to be re-paved. So, it’s gravel at the moment. I really want to walk outside. It’s so pretty right now, and I’m stuck inside with yoga videos until it gets better. In fact, I haven’t even done one of those recently. I’m really hoping that dieting will be enough for this week.

I made my version of Olive Garden’s Zuppa Toscana for lunch. I really like it, and most of my family does as well. I didn’t realize the difference in calories between it and the original until today when I sat down to figure it out.  I was very happy to find that out. I am planning on making Chicken Fried Rice for supper. So, I think my whole family is excited about that.

I’m going to try using water-shoes. Maybe that will work and I can go to the pool and swim. I’ll bandage up my heel first. It has a scab on it, but I think the water shoes might keep it from getting really irritated in the water. Will let you know on tomorrow’s update.

Did not get to cook. Instead, I changed my dinner off to eat Chinese food.

Day 7- Saturday

I tend to think about food, a lot. I’m constantly planning on when I get to have it, and when I can get my next ‘fix’. Yes, I like junk food, but I think I also just like the sensation of eating. I feel better when I eat better. So, I’m hoping that will reflect on the scale. I’m also doing the food journal thing because I’ve heard that it helps when you want to lose weight. Does anyone else have any good suggestions?

I’m going to start walking on Monday. I think giving my heel a couple of more days before I attempt to put on a shoe. I am going to do a Yoga video tonight. So, at least I’ll get some exercise in for the day. Hope everyone has a great weekend!